sept 2000 when we started this romance... im so glad to meet you. an angel sent from heaven. we're just like soulmate. we feel if someone else's is not okay. we lived thru emails, ecards, postcards and YM - big thanks to technology..hahaha! we have someone to run and talk to in any topic under the sun.

ive learned to love your style.

we're a part of each other. but we havent touch the sensitive matter regarding "us". we're busy talking about our lives, family and our dreams. an ear for every single detail of the each other's endeavor. we have high respect for each other- truly friendship flourish throughout these years.

and im loving it..

come march 2008 - the "you" and 'I" became "us". was so happy.. really happy i cant hide it. all im wishing is just to be with you. that's it and nothing else. i cant imagine myself being in love with other men. was thankful God granted me this sign and i know He's happy for my decision.

i love you in every step of the way, in everything you are and not. for everything you'll become and i will love to grow old with you..

waiting in vain is fine.. just to be with you.. i love you..

langit ka.. lupa ako..pero nagtagpo tayo noong araw na yun sa masukal na mundo ng bintana..kung san sa lambat na yun maraming gaya natin ang naghahanap ng hindi nila mahanap... gustong maintindihan kahit dapat nilang maintindihan na hindi nila maintindihan..

ngunit heto pagkatapos ng limang taon - habang lumilipas... lalong lumalayo..sa mga pagbabagong hindi ko masakyan dahil naroon pa din ako kanto, umaasang dadaan ka sakay ng napakabagal mong otong walang gulong.

sa mga sulat - na puro laman ng lihim na pagsamo, nilamon ako ng hiya na ako rin naman ang gumawa at sumira. ikaw lang at ang munti mong bintana ang may alam - hindi mo ko inabangan. sa kung anu man ang dahilan mo, naiintindihan kita, huwag kang mag-alala.

sa lenggwaheng alam ko - nawa'y naiparating ko yaong laman nitong puso ko kahit sa postcards, emails/mails at address lang kita maaaring mahawakan.

i told myself not to do it.. but for some reasons, i know i need to...pero parang mali, nakakasakit ka na ah..hay...pagkatapos kong sabihin lahat - parang lalo kang nalayo - sobrang layo...hindi na kita maabot...

"para kasi akong nagsasayaw sa paligid lang ng maganda mong apoy.. napaso ako... pero sana wag akong masunog gaya  ng nangyari sa kwento ni Rizal."

sana nga dahil sobrang importante ka para mawala sa akin... parte ka na ng araw at buhay ko..

i never learn my lesson that well.. i always say "i have to learn it fast before it kills me"

I should know it by heart - should know the art of letting  go (kanta un, alam ko) - it eats me, I'm consumed by the bitterness of me - like coffee - after sometime, how bitter it may seem - i love it and i hate it but i still crave for another..

still, i yearn for you... im still not over you...i have to move along now...but tell me how...i cant tore up the letters and postcards you sent me... i cant delete your number...and i hate you because i cant forget you..

i really miss you..i do..

my little me - misses you... she reserves a vacant seat for you...

i know  you'll say " you're crazy" - yes, i know...

another day of the usual month...

same faces, same shit to deal with...

isang kaluluwa na naman ang nakausap ko...

isang kaluluwa na naman ang nasaktan ko...

mahirap din naman ang laging ganito...

ayaw ko naman manakit..pero laging nauulit..

sabi ko naman... pde maging magkaibigan...

pero hindi ang magka-ibigan...

hope this will not ruin our friendship...i hate myself sometimes.. being too close for comfort really gets me into trouble.. i hate it..

will i ever have my chance to meet the "one"

hope so... i'll pray for him.. i'll pray that He will give it ...in the way i like it.. in the way i hope it will be... in the way i long for it...

dumo spero spiro...

i wish you the best in life...  everything that your heart desires....

may she take care of your delicate heart.. your very fragile heart...

i wish i can just put all the memories, happiness i felt before when we're still sharing one hope - that someday we will find that missing piece..our hearts searching for...I'm happy you found the way back into arms of your first love..

i'm praying for you always...im praying i can find someone as kind, patient and loving soul..

im really happy for you..

i'll miss you my sweetest whatever...

sa araw na ito, ipinagdiriwang ko ang katangahan ko..

ang sobrang kabaitan ko..ang paghihinagpis ko...

ang lahat ng sama ng loob ko sa nangyari nitong 2 araw na nakalipas... kulang ang isang araw para ubusin ang mga luha at atungal na ilalabas ko...

panalangin ko nalang..

tulungan ako ng Maykapal makalimutan ang masamang bangungot na ito.. iwanan ako ng isang matamis na aral... na babaunin ko hanggang sa kamatayan...

kahit ilang beses kong isipin paano mangyayari sa akin ang ganitong kasamang kalokohan.. wala akong maisip na dahilan...

ipinagpapasa Diyos ko nalang...

 The greatest pain in life
is not to die, but to be ignored.

To lose the person you love so
much to another who doesn't care at all.

To have someone you care so about so much throw a party...
and not tell you about it.

When your favorite person on earth
neglects to invite you to his graduation.

To have people think that you don't care.

The greatest pain in life, is not to die,
but to be forgotten.

To be left in the dust after another's great
achievement.

To never get a call from a friend,
just saying "hi".

When you show someone your innermost thoughts and
they laugh in your face.

For friends to always be too busy to console you
when you need someone to lift your spirits.

When it seems like the only person who cares about you, is you.
Life is full of pain,
but does it ever get better?
Will people ever care about each other,
and make time for those who are in need?

Each of us has a part to play
in this great show we call life.
Each of us has a duty to mankind

to tell our friends we love them.
If you do not care about your friends
you will not be punished.
You will simply be ignored...
forgotten... as you have done to others.

This poem was written by a young girl who
committed
suicide some years ago.

- sa tingin mo? tama naman ung gusto nyang sabihin dba? sana nakilala ko muna xa bago tumakas..sana lang nakapag usap kami..

ako kaya to?

o ikaw?

sa una, parang ang saya nating magkasama, sa kalokohan, sa kasiyahan, sa kalungkutan at problema mo. Daig mo pa ang isang uod na kung kumain ng nabubulok na katawan.

nasa sistema na kita sa araw araw.

noon yun.

habang nasa paligid ka, unti unti akong nahihilo. ang boses mo'y parang lason sa araw, biglang magbabadya ng masamang panahon. delubyo ang dapat ipinangalan sayo. ayoko na kita makita.

pero nasasaktan ako sa bawat pagdaan ng araw..malayo na ang loob natin sa isa't isa. kasalanan ko rin sa isang banda, hinayaan kong magkaganito.. sa taas ng ihi mo at sa tigas ng ulo ko.. sa totoo lang, sayang talaga.

pero kung susumahin natin ang buwan at panahon ng pagkakaibigan natin.isa lang ang ibig sabihin nito. makapangyarihan ka dahil nasa taas ka ako nama'y taga sunod lang. corporate slave kung baga.. hay naku ... kung magpangggap tayo parang ayos lang lahat... kung makitungo ka sa iba parang ganon nalang..parang wala ako sa paligid.. isang hangin... isang maruming hangin para sayo...

napagtanto ko...

oo, mapagpanggap ka.. at ayoko sayo. =(

salamat naman at may panahon ka na sa sarili mo

sa dami ng damit na hindi na kaxa sa iyo, sa dami ng fat deposit sa katawan mo

mainam nakilala mo si maic

sana totoo ka sa pangako mo..this time il be sweeter ang drama sana ng buhay mo...

sana tuloy tuloy na..awa ng Diyos..

hehe

napakasarap naman talaga ng mais con yelo.. lalo sa mainit na panahon...kasama ka..kausap ka..kakulitan ka.. kahit wala tayong tulog nun...at lahat ng mga food..masarap

basta kasama ka...

miss lang kita sobra...

gusto ko nang mabenta ung N6510 ko... ang luma luma na nun.. pero... andun yung note mo...

miss talaga kita...

sana masaya ka...muah

semper fidelis...hindi nga eh..=/